well, quite a number of things which happened.. the coughing still occurs till now! i am seriously sick and tired already.. flu come and go... and back again.. =.=

had some music exchange with the indo people.. and despite my sickly throat, i have to do presentation.. i really dunno how many strepsils have i popped into my mouth! think bulk of my allowance went to the strepsils company..

went out with gan, jess and estee on different days.. =) spend a lot!!!!!

well, zooming into certain event(s).. i wanna apologize to a certain person whom i have indirectly hurt.. that person dunno who he/she is but nonetheless, i feel guilty bout it.. i really didnt know that Z is that dumb and stupid! seriously! when i was helping Z with certain issues, it really didnt occur to mi that Z is like that! i didnt know Z would do this kind of thing till i recalled something from the past.. i am really sorry to have hurt u.. all along, i thought i am mature enough to think about how my frenz feel and stuff but now, i dun think so anymore.. i feel like i am just one of the inmature people whom i have once criticized.. i know u ocassionally read my blog but i hope this post will still be here when u visit it again.. =) i really and seriously hate Z!! to all people out there, although spore is small, it is still infested with this kind of dumb and senseless people who will just talk and talk without thinking at all!!!

well, thats one of the events.. another one is that i am starting to dislike my parents.. now, i see my younger sis growing up, i always compare her to the kid i was 12 years ago.. i know, generation changes, people changes, policemen wore shorts in the past.. but now they are wearing pants.. i just cant help feeling so angry at times..

my dad starts to cane me when i was 5,

but now, he didnt even raise his voice when my sis did something wrong.

my dad instill fear in me and my bro when we were young,

but now, he dotes on my sis like hell.

my dad used to slap my bro and i when we were impolite to mom,

now, he didnt even care.

my dad used to cane me coz i am crying out loud;

and stops when my cries have gone silent,

but now, whenever my sis cry, he just promise her to take her out another day.

this list goes on and on...

maybe, i should have listened to some of my frenz to rebel against them..

maybe i should have been like my bro to vent my anger on them till they are tired of it..

maybe...

if only i could turn back the time,

i would not have let them restrict my freedom to make frenz,

i would have tell them straightly what i really want,

i would have argued my way..

i would have done lots of things..

this thing in me, starts to bud.. something keeps telling me that if they ever let me out of the cage to fly about, i will fly far away and never return.. the amount of wounds they create, can they ever see it? as i type this post with them just sitting near me, watching tv, will they ever know that my tears are pouring internally?

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