Its FRIDAYYYYY.
For most students, its the end of weekdays and beginning of weekends. Nothing to be egg-cited about cause for as long as i can rem, i didnt have much fun on weekends. Now, its still the same as well. Lets see, wasted my monday playing pokemon. (yes, i'm deprived of it.) Tuesday went pass without my notice. Indulging myself in books and aircon on a Wednesday afternoon was perfect. Cheesecake and 5 tupas with gannie at Bakerzin that very evening was awesome. All the talking and eating and laughing and drinking and sleeping and complaining do us good. Haha. And all are half priced cause we're still students!!! haha. I mean at heart. LOL! Thursday starts early cause mum and sis went to malaysia for 5 days. Woke up to say bon voyage before hitting the pillows again. Reached MI at 9 to take my appraisal from teachers before hitting to driving centre for my lesson. Went on a shopping spree myself at jp. Haha. My bank is bleeding money pls. Someone pls transfer some money in. =(
Tml: jap lunchy with ex-colleague, shir's 21st parrrrrtyyyy till late.
Sun: Final theory practice in the morning before slogging off to gym?
Mon: Shall I book for another practice lesson? hmmm
Tues: final theory evaluation and perhaps the launching of blogshop. =)) plus going to restock
Wed: It's April's fool!! Perhaps going K-boxing.
Thurs: If the student centre is kind enough to give me a job, I'll start work on that day. =)
Sat: ST JAMES with gannie. =)
MillionDollar Question: Why can she go out with so many different guys without feeling aweward?
This week has been a busy one for me. Not forgetting a demoralized one. Went to have my FTP on tues. Out with gannie on numerous occasions. Watched hes just not that into u (like finally), applied for all 3 unis with zero factor of satisfaction. Not forgetting dunno how many achievements essays i have to type out and the number of trees meiling and i have killed at meiwen's hse. And the number of foods meiling gobbled ate. And the NUS mini tour i had with yong and gan plus the fun time talking with erika. I swear its awesome and she never change eh. And on sat, the Indo concert held at NUS again. YES. again. Plus the late night out at Thiong bahru plaza plus the gym today. Hell, i nearly cant breathe. =s
Throughout this week, its been tiring. I seldom have time for myself. To think through the path i want. After talking to people and reading blogs, uni doesnt seems appealing to me now. I can barely survive in MI with spoon feedings from tutors. What makes me so sure that i can survive at those high independent level? After letting yong and gan to read my achievements thing, i cant say i'm happy about it. I cant deny that my english have dropped. Or has it never been improved? Ohwells, i dun think i'm ready for all that in uni. Worst, i dun think i can handle. Could this be the reason for my insonmia? i hate it.
On a side track, my sis went to the swimming pool alone. Yup. I went to the gym while shes there in the pool all alone. Watching other kids play and have their parents by their side. I wonder if she'll detest my mom or me for leaving her there. But, its still her decision to go. I guess the taste of freedom is too irresistable to her coz apparently, she is still there at the swimming pool while i am here at home typing all these. I must say she's brave for her age to do things alone. Sometimes, I wonder if i'm the one taking care of her or she's the one taking care of me.
Why should i follow the crowd when my heart is not?
I swear its hard to do things the way i want.
The life I yearn is so far, so far.
The obstacles is so huge, so demoralizing.
I can see it, but I cant reach it.
Who will be there to give me a push, a pull?
When I know that that effort,
Will guide me through. =)
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All these 3 days were well spent i must say. Teared, confused, EXtremely happy, joyous, tired and many more. Emotions are flowing in and out of my body way too fast. One moment my heart was pumping ever too fast, trying to jump out of my body to show the world how nervous and scared i'm. When slowly, all my friends got their results, I'm feeling alot more shit as mins passed by. The only think I know is that they dun deserve the grades they got. They deserve more.
And soon, it was my turn. All my friends results have assured me the kinda results I wun be getting. No As, Bs, and Cs. True to a large extent, there isnt anything like that in my cert except for one sub. My math is in and so is my econs. Shocked and in extreme happiness, I hug Mr Pow and teared in Jess arms. I know. The results in my cert is not good enough but compared to the no math and DEE scenario which I've prepared myself, this is the best! I dun yearn more than what i've put in but considering the fact that I've only worked hard at the last lap, its more than enough. =)
Wanna thank these people for calming my nerves and placing their important luck with me.
My Family
Kah Hui
Jess
Estee
Erika
Weiling
Shirley
Cui Jun
Jun yong
Say Hoe
Jonathan
Saw Wah
Mandy
Meiling
Meiwen
May Wee
Tina
Swee Choo
Clarabell
Calvin
Rachel
....
and many many more. =))
And so, a few of us went to marina square for a pizza feast. And trust me. We did anything but stone and slack. It was way too tiring for me as I've cried and my eyes are sore. Thats how I feel. =s
Sat, went to support ed and sam for their bazaar store near SMU and also went for their open hse. With my grades, cant get into any FASS courses but I still wanna apply. I dun wanna give up that stray of hope that I've seen when I got my results. I'm gonna apply all FASS courses to try at least.
After that, yong, hoe and me went for a dinner and walk from plaza sing to far east. There are things which have been settled!! Will post here as soon as its been finalised and ready to see the world and stand out in this monopolistic market. =) And yes, we're pretty much excited as this is a clique affair and hopes it turns out well.
Sun was well spent with my family members though I've a huge headache. But the time spent with them was too little for me to reject the idea of having sinful dinners with them. We're not rich yes and i doubt they are able to afford my uni fees but still, having fun and eating together was priceless. Eating, Shopping, gossipping makes my night enjoyable.
This week will be pretty much tough for me.
Mon night: Ed farewell to army
Tues: Most prob going supreme court with ed
Wed: should be heading to bugis plus possible night at eskiBar
Thurs: celebrate ah hee's bdae
Fri: cleo bachalor parrrttyyy with school girls clique
Sat: going opening hse for NTU and NUS with meiling and mandy hopefully with meiwen
Sun: currently unplanned.
And yes, thats my buzzy week. I'm preetty excited going out with school girls clique coz I've not been going out with them for a long long time. Its either my boss hates me that day or I've booked my lesson or they left without me. Ohwells, hope to see them on fri. =)
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Just 24hrs more, my life would change.
Drastically. =(
3 MORE DAYS!!!!!
To the ultimate day. Yes! My heart could'nt stop pumping and thumping. My mind can't stop thinking. Its killing me. I am afraid to plan anything on that day, the day after it and the day after after it. I'm afraid I'll cry till my eyes are sore and puffy. I'm afraid I cant take it though I know I deserve it. I'm afraid of losing what I already have. There are a whole lot of million things that pass through my mind. Private? No money. Work? No cert. It seems like a dead end which ever way I think. It isn't suppose to be like that. Insomnia is driving me crazy!! But the best thing is that I know I won't be facing it alone. It warmth my heart knowing that people care how I am gonna handle it rather than wanting to know my results. =)Labels: warmth in a storm
(Duh!)