Saturday, February 28, 2009
I am back! haha. From all over the places. Lots of outings with my dear ones and have fun chatting and cracking up with them. Will do a major update on it tml! With photos as well. =)
Well, as most of my frenz have recieved the invitation cards from the 3 major universties in spore, i shall not spend too much time on the content. Well, each and EVERY evening, after my boring work, i thought i dun need ta go home and torture myself to stress and stuff but NO!!!!! I swear i see sleeping stars fuming when i received all the cards! All telling me and prompting me to go into their universities. And it almost seems like i can for once in my lifetime CHOOSE the university that i want. All these makes me so depressed as i know what to expect for my A lvls. and it makes me confused coz it seems that i CAN enter. =( I swear when i got my results, i will send the appeal letters until they regret they EVER send in their letters to students! Imagine all their faces when they keep receiving appeal letters from me.. LOL!!
Okie, back to the topic. 6th March is what everyone seems to say D Day. I'm freaked out. Honest. I dunno what to expect and i have heard waaaayyyyy too many rumurs to even believe in any now. Moderation, lowering of university standards. All seems to be misleading my mind that i can possibly pass my math, my econs and enter into the uni that i want with the courses that i wanna enter. But i know, at the end of the day, when lying on my bed, reality will sink in. Hard.
On a funnier note, i have seen 4 wedding cars today!!! Can you guys even believe it? Why everyone seems to be getting married today? AND SHORTLY AFTER MY MARRIAGE POST AS WELL?!?!? ENOUGH BUDDHA! ENOUGH!
Labels: A lvls, uni invitation cards, wedding cars
Friday, February 20, 2009
Overdue photos140209: Formation of Lil'clique and mandy's bdae celebration @ vivocity!
Ate at Kopitiam and slacked in Pacific Coffee Company. =) I love the passionfruit there!! Its really cool and refreshing when the water flow through ur throat. nice nice.
150209: Curious Case of Benjamin Button with Mud and Jess @ Yishun GV.
Its really a nice movie! Superb! Dunno why so many people prefer Slumdog millioniare. hmm.. Gonna watch it someday then!=)
I am hooked!!
Flightless bird, american mouth - Iron&wine all thanks to GANNIE!! lol..
A little too not over you - David Archuleta
210209: slacking at lib before hitting to spore river with gannie.
220209: flea market near powerhouse waiting for me! with jess, estee and prob carolyn.
280209: bowling with Lil Clique ( not planned yet. )
060309: release of A results? ( not sure too but got rumurs )
070309: most prob dead.
Labels: songs
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
This morning, as usual, woke up at 6.30am and did my usual bathing and stuff. Was about to settle down for breakfast when my dad pops up the marriage topic. Sounds random I know but he soon shifted his scope to me! Well being the eldest, he would want me to get married 1st!! I was like what the heck?!?! Its early in the morning and he talks about getting married! I am just 19! Not even 20 yet. Am I so hard to live with? So, well, i snapped back and told them I might not get married while they are discussing how many kids i should have. =.=" And ya, they gave me that typical nothing-to-say kinda face which most parents would give and there goes my morning breakfast.Honestly, whats with marriage?Labels: marriage
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Had a real horrible dream last night. Dreamt that my gums are unable to withstand the weight of my teeth and it dropped! At first the dream started off when my 2 front teeth starting to disappear. Then, when i open my mouth, the gums on my right side starts to fall with only 1 teeth there holding. Than the whole gum just dropped right before my freaking eyes!! I swear i was so horrified! I was just staring in the mirror and it was disgusting. The gums were all exposed and when i touched it, it starts to bleed. YYYYYEEEWWWWWWWWW. The dream was so real and scary. I woke up in cold sweat ard 3 plus and i cant sleep after that. =.= So much so for trying to rest early last night. And now, my panda eyes are very much more obvious and when i look at myself in the morning today, i look like someone who got possessed! Those dark round rings ard the eyes with hair that are so frizzy and shape of a lion. I know part of the description SOUNDS like the usual me but i know its not. My face is so dull and lifeless that i really wonder are there anything alive in me?!?!? It seems as though i haven eat veges for days...Wait a min....Crude, i really didnt eat veges FOR DAYS!!!!!!!!!Okie. That seems to explain the dull and lifeless face i've got, the perfect ring of tyres around my waist and my thighs and the countless of clothes that i cant fit in. Hmmm.. but what about the dream? Do my gums suffer without veges?Labels: Bad dream, veges
Saturday, February 14, 2009
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY PEOPLE!!
Got to hear something real sweet and innocent yesterday on the radio. Was listening to Ross and Shawn's show and Shawn shared something he got to know from a 6 year old girl. He ask her wat is love to her and she replied " Love is when u tell a guy that his shirt is nice, he wears it everyday. "Awwwwww.. sweet.. aint she?Well, gonna go out later with the Ms.. tml will be watching the curious case of benjamin button! =)
Labels: benjamin button, valentine
Friday, February 13, 2009
Okie.. If u look at the date and day separately, its just another normal working friday and just another year of 13th feb of which is grettie's bdae! Big Fat twenty-O girl!!! Well, if u put the two together, its the freakish Black friday and i got to know that this year, we're having 2 Black fridays.. zzz Tough luck with it. Went in the office to see that my boss face was as black as the television screen with those u-better-dun-go-off-earlier-than-me kinda eyes. Shit him. I swear the WHOLE WAREHOUSE experience nothing cheerful once he stepped into the building. Like dementors from the Harry Potter sequel. Honest! There is no talking except to forwarders, no dilly dally stuff, no anything. We cant go off 0.0000001 nano mins earlier or else he'll say, " sorry, not a FULL HOUR WORKED so, not paid. " accompanied with that award winning smile.And today, being the blackest black friday, he have to make things worse so that non of us can interprete what he plans behind that smile he always carries. Yup, we're gonna stay and do the shit outta the work!! I AM SO BORED ALREADY and yet, he must demand ask us to stay behind! Shit him to the core!! If it's not for my supervisor, I'll sack him! * The last sentence is strictly for the pleasure of MY imagination. =)Okie, on a side note, tml is sweet sweet valentine's day. So, to all couples, happy sweet sweet hugable, memorable, tastable and sexy valentines. And to all singles, lets just enjoy the reccession. =)Ohya, suddenly remembered something that gannie told me. Think she read somewhere in some mag saying that Robert Pattison hates Valentine's day. So when ask what he'll do on that day, he said: " I'll go up to every guy on the queue and say, hope its worth it. " Whaaaaaa..... Bastard sia.. Lucky Edward Collen didnt say that. Phew.Labels: black friday, detestable boss, valentine
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Went out with Gannie late last night to watch the bride war at Jp GV. Its about two girls who got to know each other since young. Both wanted to have their perfect wedding in a prestigious plaza which both of them went when they were young. In addition, their maid of honour would be each other hence, both of them have ta get marry on different days. Thats where the problem starts. As for the rest, u guys will have ta see it to find out who changed their dates. =) Up till now, i really dun understand why both of them dun wan a double wedding.. hmm.. On and all, its quite a nice movie i must say. Cried in the end.. After the movie, it got both gannie and me thinking. Will we be like them in the few years to come if we ever got married on the same day? LOL. Just a thought anyway and i doubt we'll be like them. But who knows? In some ways, the movies and us are alike. Gannie likes rnning like emma but i don't. Both of us know each other for the longest long time like the two leads. ( though not quite long lah. ) Have been through ups and downs in recent times and i am sure we're gonna pull through. =)Well, talking about weddings, I haven't really thought about it how is it gonna be like. Told some of my friends that i'll have it on the moon!! some really extraordinary place that have never been held before BUT!! after a few months, JAPAN MADE IT POSSIBLE!!! =( My idea okie. LOL. Anyway, been thinking about Paris? Miami?Or my dreamland? Better i think. =pSometimes, these bonds are found in your spouse but there are other more valuable ones found in someone who have been beside you since a long long time. =)Labels: friendship bonds, wedding
Monday, February 09, 2009
I am feeling utterly demoralized and rejected. Though after talking/smsing a few people, they did lower the degree of demoralization. Dejected, forlorn, whatever the eng words there is, ALL seems to understate the kind of feelings i am feeling now. Stupid uni admission, stupid money that makes the world goes round, stupid certificate that is easy to get but may not be easily accepted by society, stupid me. Fine.If i am drinking alcohol right now, after the 1st cup, i think i'll be drunk. Speaking of that, it reminds me of a joyous occassion on sat! =)) KLP went to chillz bar to celebrate gannie's 20th birthday!!! The environment kinda inject fear coz wherever we walked, people just stare like they wanna beat you up. But inside the chillz bar was quite alright except for the out-of-tune singing. I think we made the place an enjoyable one. =) Nonetheless, that was the day gannie tested her alcohol limit and passed way beyond it, draining her the ability to stand and think properly. Hence, we left the place when the night was young. As for me, i nearly went over the boundary but manage to keep control of it. Think its due to the huge jar of lime and ribena that was mixed with the vodka. LOL!! thats why i can still remain composed. =p After that, we sat taxis home and i stayed up all night ( in case gannie puke ) until the effects of hangover kicks in. Slept at 7am and woke up at 11am due to my inconsiderate neighbours that never fails to wake me up to enjoy the perfect-ly hot and stuffy afternoon.Anyway, a fun night with the KLPians ( like always ) and for the blogshop, hope it materalises soon as 2 of the guys are excited bout it. =)Ohya, back to the problem. As mention, my mood is totally destroyed, stepped upon and seems to have little chance of revival. But!! i wanna thank Buddha for making my boss and supervisor on leave hence, giving me the luxury to play my com the whole day. Think he anticipated that i may feel like that so he give me chance. Thanx! Love you~~~Often than not, we keep focusing on the door that closes, and not on the door that opens.Labels: alcohol, chillz bar, Dejected, uni admission
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
Perfection.
Skinny legs, bigger breasts
Is all they want to see
Tiny waists and thinner arms
The opposite of me.
The pressure to be perfect
Is slowly closing in
An utter suffocation
That doesn't seem to end.
Society is telling me
Beautiful is thin
And if I choose to starve myself
Perfection's what i win.
Shoving something down my throat
Will get me what i want
Bring me closer to that goal
Of a body i can flaunt.
Society is telling us
Beauty is a prize
Measured in the size of your breasts
In weight and clothing size.
But let me tell you here and now
No good will come from that
It seems okay at first
But soon becomes a trap.
A disease that clouds the mind
And believes what is untrue
Believes you're never good enough
No matter what you do.
There is one beauty that I know
It's the greatest prize of all
It's learning to accept yourself
Imperfections, flaws and all.
The beauty that really matters
Lies in our heart, our soul, our core
Because when you love what's inside
You love what's outside even more.
Brittany Steward
This poem really fills my heart with warmth and reassurance. At least I'm not alone in facing this kinda thing. Anyway, in recent nights, cant even sleep well. Thoeretically, from the hours i spent in bed, it should be enough but!!! the hours i sleep is really depleting. I can spend like hours in bed with my mind working on something that i dun know. I can only remember opening my eyes during certain times in the night and suddenly, its morning, work. Can some doctor just pass by here and diagnose whats wrong with me?
Sometimes, letting go benefits.
Labels: brittany steward, Friends
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