Monday, April 27, 2009
The previous post have been deleted as it has served its purpose. Though its not the outcome I've hoped but its better than nothing and I've accepted it. By the strike of midnight yesterday or rather this wee morning, conclusions were somehow formed. Lines were deeply drawn. To whoever who have read that post, keep mum as the matter is over now. And to whoever who felt offended, i apologise if any sentences in my post have double meanings to it. Do read and interprete it as what I've wrote there and nothing more. Plain and simple.
As for now, whats the meaning of true friendship? I'm not sure but I'll not give up in finding one. =))
Labels: conclusion
Friday, April 24, 2009
AAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!
HAHA! I'm the happiest teacher today! =)) Today is indeed the day I want to re-live in case someone offers me a choice to. I must say I'm easily contented. As long as the students do not have any careless mistakes in their daily assignments/do not give me any mitsy problems, I'm contented. Well, this very student of mine was extra-ordinary NAGGING! yes. A P4 guy student really can get onto any teacher's nerve pls! He nags about EVERYTHING! And that is not an overstatement at all! To be exact, an understatement. He nags about his school work, nags about the difficulty of his assignments, nag about his toys, liquid paper, pencial case ANYTHING!! And he has to sit in front of me cause he happens to be the most talkative one. So, I have to shout at him for up to 3 times a day!! And just for that 2 hours with him.
He is in West Grove and they happen to have NAFA for these past 2 weeks. I have to take them to school as I'm free during that hour. I asked him whether he can get gold or not cause for last year, he only got silver. But! as usual, he nags and complains that it is TOO tough to get it due to his 1.6km run. So I asked him to do his best for the 5 stations first. Well, he did me proud by improving on his shuttle-run. I didnt think a lot about this and I let it pass. Today was his 1.6km run. As usual, I took him to school and we talked about his timing for it. Well, he told me he has never ran below 11mins and his worse timing was 12mins plus. The school's best timing for his cohort was 9mins plus. I was surprised but I asked if he can run within 11mins. As usual, he nags and complained that it was too difficult. I asked him try not to walk for this time round. Well, I didnt expect him to listen to me anyway cause he never did in my class. And so, back to the student centre I went. I didnt expect him to reach there earlier than 4.45pm but to my surprise, he reached the student centre at 4pm!! His face was so red that it was obvious he ran back from school despite having stern warnings from the teacher-in-charge not to.
After scoldings, I asked him for his timing and guess what?? He was the 2nd in cohort and his timing was 10mins plus!! Apparently, he took my advice not to walk. At that point in time, I was so overwhelmed that I have nothing to say. To say that I was touched was seriously an understatement. The student who was always talking back to me, always parroting whatever I've said, annoyed me to my bones actually did me proud. Actually followed what I told him to and achieve something beyond what he expects. The satisfaction I get was too much that I have to pour it out here!! In this empty space for me to remember by. I still find it hard to believe that he took my work seriously. Looking back at all the assignments he have done, he was the one who have improved tremendously despite his verbal diarrhea. And I have overlooked it because of his behavior in class. I feel upset that I've overlooked him but, this is something that I've learnt and so, will improve on.
Labels: overwhelmed
Monday, April 20, 2009
A long long time since i last post. I realised that I've not been updating alot of events recently. And thats partially caused I'm TOO lazy to even upload the photos. And also I'm beat dead after work. All my energies were used to entertain and scold the kids. But somehow, when I'm there, I dun feel drained at all. Only after it. Haha.
Well, time to update about my personal life here. Went to Cleo's bachalor party at zirca with greta and caier!! It was hell lot of fun with all the dancing and stripdance and supporting our eyecandies and many many more!! haha. Despite after a month since I went there, it is still so vivid in my mind!
Next one would be going with Gannie to st James!! Haha. 2 girls only k so I'm kinda proud of it. BUTBUT! its too crowded and we can barely move our butts when we want to. Just when we were getting in the mood, someone just have to pass by and thus, we have to stop. Feel that we're not daring enough. Ohwells, estee and jess will be coming along the next time we go!! =D
An another would be a night out with the MI girls. After meeting them and talking for awhile, we realised that we have not been contacting much with one another except a few girls. But, we did alot of catchups!! =) Went to Clark Quay's Ma Miason to chill and have dinner. Only one girl was exceptionally late but nevermind. She make it up by eating fast. Haha. After that, we chill out at fashion bar. The music was wayyyy too loud and we can barely hear ourselves gossip. =.= Martini at only 5 bucks!! I'm so going there soon!! =))
Have been buying so many clothes for blogshops and stuff! Well, some are for myself laaa but I think I deserve it okie? LOL! okie. Fine. Haha. But it was a fun day shopping with estee and jess! We spent like 4 hours choosing clothes? After that, we cab down to estee's house for the photo-taking as she is not feeling well. BUT!! she still help us by being the model! I love spending time with them and we can talk about anything! And I feel that thats what friends should feel like. Comfortable, Happy with no reserves whatsoever! =))
On trains, I thought of a poem myself! It really reflects what I'm feeling there and than. =)
Is it a good investment?
I asked.
When friends got into relation,
Left us.
When friends fell in love,
Ignored us.
When friends have different goals, hobbies or mentalities,
Pushed us.
It just showed me how shallow our friendship is
Thats all.
So now you'll answer
Is it a good investment?
Just this few sentences sums up how I feel about some friendship I have. Balancing life isnt there anymore. Be opened to new things and ideas seems so difficult for them. Pushing away is an easy option. I fell into this trap once and I realise I have nothing in the end. Making friends seems to difficult that I sometimes remain silent. Will maintaining it be easy?
Labels: long lost life.
Friday, April 10, 2009
porridge, plain white o'l bread, porridge, plain white o'l bread, porridge, plain white o'l bread..
This has been my meals from wed to today!! A 19 going on 20 year old should be having fun, going out and slacking on this kinda public holiday but NO! i'm now stuck at my home recuperating. And i am so gonna brush up my english cause i cant freaking spell simple words without consulting a dictionary. THIS SPELLS TROUBLE.
And yes, 1 week at the student care already. okie. Pui leng get the satisfaction while working in one. Haha. not happiness. My bad. Haha. But i feel so much older. Like i'm their mum!! I fetch them to and from school, I have to make them drink loads of water in case they fell sick like me! And consistently, i ask how was their day in school. I'm slowly and progressively turning into an auntie. In the past, i thought that being strict and stern will make obey. True but i figure i dun wanna be like that. I wanna be like their friend!! Haha. I've made 4 friends already okie. Everytime i fetch them to or from school, they'll tell me how was their day! Haha. One of them even told me that she got a BOYFRIEND!!! tsk tsk tsk. Haha. And she is only Pri1. They are so seriously cute!!
Okie This following short paragraph is delicated to thick skinJOLENNIE!!
I got to know is frank and smiley jolennie only at the beginning of year 3. Yes yes, almost all good things start at that time of the year! Haha. She is someone who can make ur day a good o'l one when her laughter. Dun see that slacky face of hers for she is hard at work too!! haha. I feel like promoting her so that she gets married off soon eh.. LOL!! But nevertheless, if u are looking for someone who can rely on and have a good sense of humour, she the girl for ya! =p BUTBUT!!! u'll need to be ONE of her eye candies 1st cause now at hand, she has got alot!! Haha. So guys, what are u'll waiting for? Call her at----
HAHA!! think i'll give here? NO WAY! Just click Jolennie at my links and email her!! Find out about her interesting life while u are there as well!!! LOL! interesting?? Haha. But i must say, during my year in MI, I never forsee that she'll be the one i'll keep in contact with. I must say, she is REALLY someone as steady as a pillar. Straight forwardness is in her nature and she can be pretty wild at times. And thats an element of surprise for you! =))
Labels: Delication, sick
Thursday, April 02, 2009
My first day as a student care teacher. I know. Lots of people have been giving tuitions and being a student care teacher like me way before hand BUT! to me, its an experience i'll NEVER forget. Being a teacher there have since put me in a kinda weird position. Its not like facing ur classmates talking. Somehow, i feel so nervous pls!! Though they are some p3 and p5 students, i cant bring myself to be angry with them. I have to think before i speak, have to tolerate all their nonsensical questions and not forgetting their kypo-ness. I cant talk normally like how i've been talking in school. I've quite a number of experience talking in front of strangers but, i just cant be myself when i'm in front of them.
The kind of feeling i get is totally different. Fath feels frustrated when she is in child care. Pui Leng gets the sense of happiness when she is working there as well. But for me, its neither. All their forever-wanting-my-attention method is driving me nuts yet makes time fly pass. When they are out to play games, i kept looking at them and wish that my mum put me in some student care centre when i was young. When the boys were playing soccer, you people should have watched how they play! Some boys play like they are David Beckham. The way they purposely fall to mimick their football idols stopped me from scolding them when i'm supposed to. I know, thats really bad but i cant help it. I know for one fact that when they grow up, they will reminisce all these memories just like i do. I missed out so much when i was at their age and now, i hope they will enjoy whatever they have when i have to look after them.
Anyway, working as a teacher there certainly raised certain doubts in my future to maybe be a teacher. For one thing, I dun have the heart to scold them. Even if i were to scold, its definitely not from my heart. Its just cause i have to. And i also tend to spend TOO much time on the weak ones thus neglecting others. Not a very good sign as some will purposely be weak when they are not. For one fact, teaching my sister is definitely harder then teaching them. I yearn perfection for my close ones and hope that my sister will not follow the path that i've walked. I hope she will out-shine me in all aspects that i've done. To live the life that i want but cant.
This week is gonna be a tough week. Considering the fact that i've start work. Friday night will be discussing about something important. Saturday morning qing ming. Followed by meeting of gannie's fren at clark quay before hitting of to st james with yan shan( tentatively ). Sunday will be going to estee's hse before hanging out with carolyn at some place in spore. =)
This paragraph is delicated to GANNIE!!
All this while, u've been there for me. Be it for A levels to rejecting guys to liking someone, u've been there. For this coming sat, i'll be there for u you as well. For all the decisions u've made, i'll stick to you like bees to honey. If he is disappointed, in the future, he'll regret. If he scrowls at you, i'll make sure his mouth regrets having the owner. If he finds you not up to his standard, i'll make sure he wun be of any decent girl's standard. If he complains about ur style, i'll groge his eyes out(with a fork) =) For every guy we have met or are going to meet, we should not be thinking that he might possibly hurt us in the future but rather, think that he may widen your views and insights to something. Remember, its the joy of meeting a friend and not a boyfriend that will make you a lot more open minded. (in a good way. =)) If he can take in your perfections and accept your flaws, he is one good friend to keep but if he cant, dun worry. Coz there are billions of people out there that you'll get to meet and perhaps, keep. You are there to show ur trueself and whether or not if he can accept it, that is his problem. And whether or not you can take it, you still have me by the side. =)
Labels: fren, teacher
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